Silence

I'm settling in nicely at my job now.  After being at this institution in a full-time big-girl position for about four months, I really feel like I'm a member of the team.  Of course, I also feel like a bit of an outsider at times, but that's usual.  I'm quite happy that I will be at this job for a while and am given the opportunity to spread my wings and do what I want.  I just finished presenting at AAAL with a co-worker and have been given the room to pursue my interest of aboriginal librarianship. I will be meeting with fellow librarians with an interest in aboriginal librarianship in the next few weeks and may even get the chance to mentor a former class-mate in the area as well.  I am very excited about this and it livens up an otherwise slow period at work where I wait for the new term to begin and an increase in library classes.

Silas had his 18-month check up earlier this month and it seems like he is just fine, but behind on his speech.  I knew this.  I will be calling soon to set up an appointment with a speech pathologist.  Although I wanted to strangle him yesterday when he was sick and fussy and completely naughty, he really is a sweet boy and I wish I could hear all the stories I know he's begging to tell me.  Today I sat on the floor instead of the couch and he was so happy to have me on his level.  He brought me books to read and toys to play with and he wanted me to get into the cardboard box with him and it was absolutely adorable and highlights many of the reasons why I am happy to be a mom.  I just wish he'd speak.  He can say hi and bye bye with hand waves.  It is precious.

I'm just selfish and I want more. 

Status Quo

Nothing like 1 AM on a now Tuesday morning to decide to update this blog, eh?  Remind me not to drink coffee with dinner, okay?  Ugh.

Anyways... It looks like all the news I had brewing on the backburner is a bit of a let down.  I found an amazing job opening in the city working with Aboriginals and developing a library curiculum.  I had a wonderful interview with the Dean and Head Librarian of the school.  But in the end, I decided that I would stay where I am currently at in hopes that if I wait this all out, I will indeed get a perminent position.  We shall see.  It seems that I will be employed until June 30 at least.  Should be long enough to put a dent into my credit card/school debt.  At at some point in early 2013, Silas' daycare fee should drop about 150-200 bucks!  And in May I will get a 3K raise! 

I have been obsessed with charting my debt and the scenarios of paying it down. I don't know if this makes me more or less ready to think about a second kid, but so far the immediate prospect of churning out another spawn seems unlikely.  One day, maybe, perhaps. 

I usually have those heart-on-your-sleeve blogs where I can write about anything, but as I blog about my work, everything is superficial and it's a hard atmosphere in which to document.